The world I'm living

Not earlier I started reading about life myself. I'm more of an introvert than an extrovert which becomes hectic for me to mingle with humans and the physical world around me. I spent most of my time alone speaking with my inner voice. My problems are my problems, I don't share them with anyone no matter how deep it pains me within. I'm enough for myself I said. Fear has been running through my veins ever since I was born in the world of humans. I prefer to be hurt than to hurt. Whenever I am hurt. I forgive easily and forget hardly. All of all the fears I have, I fear none but intimacy. I remember, someone once said to me; I don't like the way you are behaving. Did I ask why? She said, you don't want to disturb anyone and you don't want anyone to disturb and life isn't like that. I just smiled. Another question I got was, Do you have friends? Yes, I have, I said. Everyone is my friend. Keeping my secrets, thoughts, and love in the depth of my heart and mind haunts me. I was having sleepless nights, horrible nightmares, and boring days. I have both fear and desire to leave this world. Thinking differently, my life becomes a mess with dirty thoughts. Demonic manipulation rules me to drown in a sea, take poison or hang me. I have been thinking of a way to leave this irritating world. Till now I am still possessed with that thought.

Drem girl